five
Sunday, March 30, 2008 7:33 PM
Not yet left my house. This is a nice feeling. Micaela packed up her stuff last night and moved into her new home here in portland. God it is beautiful to have a little boston on the west coast!
Tyler brought home his playstaion 2 last night, so I have been glued to the tv screen all day playing tony hawk 4, and sean palmers snowboarding. Tyler and I are living together, which is terrifying and beautiful and crazy all rolled up into one. I love it. I consider myself blessed to wake up every morning to a fantastic creature laying next to me.
8 facts
1. I have been rippin butts in my apartment all day.
2. I flipped the free wheel last night on my langster so it is now fixed.
3. my mouth tastes like triscuts.
4. I have -4.00 in my bank account
5. tyler and I are taking a bus to ACYPAA on wed night.
6. Everyone should read werewolves in their youth by michael chabon.
7. I need coffee.
8. I want coffee.
Tyler brought home his playstaion 2 last night, so I have been glued to the tv screen all day playing tony hawk 4, and sean palmers snowboarding. Tyler and I are living together, which is terrifying and beautiful and crazy all rolled up into one. I love it. I consider myself blessed to wake up every morning to a fantastic creature laying next to me.
8 facts
1. I have been rippin butts in my apartment all day.
2. I flipped the free wheel last night on my langster so it is now fixed.
3. my mouth tastes like triscuts.
4. I have -4.00 in my bank account
5. tyler and I are taking a bus to ACYPAA on wed night.
6. Everyone should read werewolves in their youth by michael chabon.
7. I need coffee.
8. I want coffee.
four
Friday, March 28, 2008 5:26 AM
Lack of sleep. I feel a nic fit approaching. I think you are suspended mid-dream, and I wish to be the catcher above your restless head. Inhale ahhhh exhale. I bite down on my bottom lip, hard. God a cigarette would be fantastic right now. 5:30 am. f u c k. You turn over, I could run my fingers through your hair and it would just be my secret. Two people existing in the same room, but operating in another world. God a cigarette would be marvelous right now.......success. I must own a home, so I may own a darkroom, so that at 5am instead of sitting in my bedroom trying to be quiet while shooing off the rain...i could print.
I have not been alone in 3 years...
sometimes i miss it.
I have not been alone in 3 years...
sometimes i miss it.
Labels: insomnia
three
Thursday, March 20, 2008 3:19 AM
A cold night in Portland. The tea shop was full of beautiful people trying to stay warm. I made 30..THIRTY dollars in tips tonight.
I may go see Obama speak in Eugene on Friday with Micaela and some ladies. Even though I have not been paying any attention to what is going on in the election this would still be an incredible opportunity. What I have heard come out of Mr. Obamas mouth thus far is somewhat inspiring. The truth however is that since I moved to Portland, I have not watched the news, read a newspaper (other than the WW or Mercury), or had any real discussion on worldly affairs. I listen to NPR pretty often, but in the past few months it has become more about the sound of the voices than the actual stories. I also am not ignorant to politics though. I know how it works and used to be very involved in what was going on. I helped my father out a lot with his political organization back in Boston, and the only conversations my dad is capable of having with me are related to politics. I think through learning my truth and trying to practice some sort of spirituality, the only way I know how to bring about change or help promote peace is by doing it one on one. Being a good person in my community, treating strangers with a nice smile and a "hey, how is your day?" Because all I know how to do is be of service to an individual, not a country.
Anyway, the new portishead album I found from a certain awesome person just finished downloading...so I am going to pass out while listening to it.
two
Tuesday, March 18, 2008 6:56 PM
tyler and i
tyler and i again
two men enter one man leaves
micaela and her first day in pdx 
at blossoming lotus
the crane she made for maddie
me. taken by tyler
also me. taken by tyler.one
Wednesday, March 5, 2008 4:22 AM
So this is the part where I tell you I feel like an adult or a child playing house, or even just a human being.
February is now laying on my carpet crumpled in a ball screaming for attention as I just let it go. The past month was the most stressful since moving here to Portland. I needed to find a new place to live, print photos for my first real art show, keep doing my 9th step, and add in the fact that I had no money to do any one of these things...not to mention the realization that swarmed over me that I really do not have a support group here...well I was ready to throw myself off one of the many bridges. I did it though.I did not drop the ball on a single thing, and I reached out after stuffing my pride in my back pocket.
I now live in a cute little one bedroom that is two blocks from tea chai te (my place of employment) , my show is on Thursday, and there is a beautiful boy that sleeps in my bed, kisses my face, and shares morning coffee with me. I have also started keeping a collection of recipes, the idea of buying silverware is very appealing, and I am elated just sit on my couch after a day of work. So...this is the part where I tell you I feel like an adult or a child playing house, or even just a human being.
I now live in a cute little one bedroom that is two blocks from tea chai te (my place of employment) , my show is on Thursday, and there is a beautiful boy that sleeps in my bed, kisses my face, and shares morning coffee with me. I have also started keeping a collection of recipes, the idea of buying silverware is very appealing, and I am elated just sit on my couch after a day of work. So...this is the part where I tell you I feel like an adult or a child playing house, or even just a human being.